Yes folks, I am typing to you from right here at my newly refurbished laptop - back from the shop with a zippy new hard drive and hopefully now virus-free as well. My data is safe - they backed it up and then I backed it up a second time as well onto my own external hard drive (yes, I do have one, and I do use it regularly, I just hadn't had a chance to back up this last week yet, and I'd worked on a lot of critically important files this week). On a more worrying note, they said that in addition to my hard drive crapping out, my computer was also riddled with viruses that my company's swanky anti-virus software did not find. Lovely. They recommended another program, ESET NOD 32, as much better, but since this is a company machine I'm stuck with company software. I will certainly pass the recommendation on, though I doubt it will do much good.
As you can imagine I'm feeling very relieved now that I'm up and running again, but I'm also working on an attitude adjustment. Data, no matter how critical it may seem, is just data. In the grand scheme of things it's just small stuff, and they say not to sweat the small stuff, right? I had a major run in with the Big Stuff this week, the world lost a soul much, MUCH too young to lose, and in a way so random and tragic as to defy reason. His family's life will never be the same without their son in it, and my life is forever touched by my friend's loss. That is Big Stuff. That is something truly worth grieving over, a stupid computer, whatever it holds inside, is still just a piece of plastic and is replaceable.
Something else worth focusing on is the tremendous group of friends and readers I have here. You guys pick me up when I'm down, smile when I smile, and are so generous with your spirit. I'm truly thankful that you are in my life and are here to welcome me each day and to help me grow - as a mother, as a photographer, and as a human being. I couldn't do what I do here without you.
I don't always have it, but I'm working on it. This week taught me that.
Wishing you all a very happy, healthy, safe and peaceful 2010.